PROZAC

zoloft

LEXAPRO

celexa

PAXIL

yeah, I do need the help of something to be happy.

I do need the help of pills to keep me sane. I do need help. I'm not afraid to admit that. Is there an issue? Are you bothered by the fact that I take something to feel better?

is it a joke to you? "lol you take a drug to feel normal."

shut up.

what is wrong about that?

I take tylenol for a headache. why can I not take these for my depression? for my insanity? I need to tell you, I need you to know, I am normal, as normal as can be. I don't pray or prey on you to have this illness, because I know what it's like. no matter how much my heart wishes for you to have this, I don't. I shut that feeling and bury it deep inside. because I know what it's like. to be miserable. to hold a blade in your hand. to pray you didn't exist. to wish you were smaller. to wish your waist was tiny, tiny like a pencil. to slowly kill yourself, because of your habits. death hovers over you and you pray for it to take you already. but you don't; you suffer.

SUFFER.

so I won't.

I won't pray for you to have this. I wouldn't wish this upon my enemies, but I do wish you switched lives with me for a day. so you could experience the mess in my head, in my life, in my world. so you could show empathy, which you so clearly lack.

so tell me,

why do you judge me for taking a pill?

a pill that does no harm,

and only helps?

so why don't you leave me alone?

let me live, insanely or sanely.